I'm not really concerned about empathy on here. I've been receiving more than I ever imagined I would!

I'm so lonely and I hate how weak I feel here. I'm literally hiding out in this basement, wishing someone would come save me. I feel like all of my power to control my life and be a strong, independant person was stolen from me by these people who are supposed to have my best interest at heart. I am not being the person I wanted to be when I would dream about my future when I was 10, 11 years old...
I hate who I am when I am around my parents. They are not good people. They are so racist and so homophobic that about 80% of their conversations involve saying something so bigoted that I want to punch them in the face...

I just want to get out of here. I want to be my own person again. I want to have the freedom to go where I want to go, say what I want to say, and express myself without being told I'm wrong for feeling how I do. I want to be around people that genuinely do have my best interests at heart. I don't want to be alone in this war anymore. I've been fighting too long and I'm tired. I really hope that life proves to be worth pushing through this. It hasn't so far.