Hugs, hugs, hugs....Please do not take my words as condescending or harsh- they were written with loving-kindness, and that sometimes does not translate so well with my writing style

...wildchild, maybe stop being so tough on yourself. And while this is in the head, it is a broken head...at least I know mine is. As many times as I tried it without meds, I just could not keep it together. Don't let the illness control you, but at the same time don't let it keep you out of control, either.

Stable days can be found, and for me that requires me staying on my meds, as well as DBT. With the DBT you only get out of it what you put into it. Instead of trying to talk yourself out of your illness, accept it and move forward.