Really it's a good thing! I really connected to what you were saying about your parents, and the idea that my way of expressing that just happened to connect to something for you was pretty sweet. I designed a homecoming float my sophomore or junior year and it won first prize (just a giganto football in our school colors). I never even went to the parade, I never took an art class, so there was like no acknowledgement. Just some girls yelling at me later because the seniors were "supposed" to win or stg. So I am just really happy that you have that merit scholarship and are able to pursue your art. It's wonderful to read about and it helps me if I can support you in any small encouraging way.