I was diagnosed in 2006 with Bipolar. It is thick in my family. Heredity no doubt played a key issue. The last four years I have lost my Dad, my sister (my only sibling), my 3 dogs died, lost a business, attempted suicide, blew 5 years of sobriety (just celebrated 1 year again) just moved (sold the old place) and I feel like crap. I feel down. I just don't see any hope for......feeling better; yet somewhere inside I know better. I do not know when things will enlighten, but I eagerly await the day. Lately I have been sobbing uncontrollably missing the old place, missing my Dad, missing my sister, missing my little buddies; the dogs. My wife is supportive, but doesn't UNDERSTAND why I am where I am at. Anybody else been here? I just want to know I am not alone.....