I feel ya...I usually start to feel this way when "normal". But, like all feelings, it passes. Remember that although we have a diagnosis, we don't and should not let the diagnosis define us.

I see you are on depakote....that one made me angry as a bee. If it is not working, or you still feel moody, or swinging up and down, maybe talk with your doctor about trying a different one. For me, anti-psychotics have worked much better.

Also, if you are not sleeping, tell your pdoc to give you something for insomnia...trazodone has worked wonders for me, and now I get more sleep than i ever have dreamed of

Blessings, hope you get some reprieve from your turmoil