I'm bored. I've been mostly stable for about six months, and I'm bored. Is anyone else bored by stability? I feel guilty about it but I miss my mania, in a twisted way I even miss my depression. I miss the drama i guess. I've even been tempted to skip my meds but would never actually do it. I know i'm not really remembering things the way they really were. I'm not remembering just how awful suicidal depression is, or the impact that psychotic mania has on my family. Now i just feel slow and dull and medicated. Am I the only one with this dirty little secret of missing the instability?