Weird day today.
Talked to my best frien over skype and told her id relapsed and she went all quiet on me, it was really awkward. So that set me off and i started freaking out thinking she thought i was being a silly hyperchondriac. Then i went to my partners parents for tea and they were really quiet and weird around me. So i was just convinced that they were looking down on me and that they think im pathetic etc. And my partner wouldnt reply to his message and i got all freaked out thinking he was ignoring me on purpose (even though i knew he hadnt recieved it/read it). What the hell is this paranoia all about? Its killing me off.
I know in real life that they all love me and they dont think this, its like im slowly slipping away from reality. Is this part of BPD or something else?
Other than that, im totally fine tonight.
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