Alright, so I'm now going onto about year number 3 of dealing with my OCD habits/rituals/thoughts and my doctor finally recommended I see a therapist as my daily life is greatly hindered with my current OCD behavior. I've tried pretty much every medication under the sun with a little help from clomipramine but I'd still say my OCD is around a level 8-9 out of 10 on degree of severity.

My main concern is coping with the idea (or possibly fact) that this damn mental condition will never go away and it's how I'm going to live the rest of my life. Im in my early 20s and the thought of dealing with this from here on out is daunting, to say the least.

I'm not seeking sympathy because it doesn't do much for anything or anybody at the end of the day (and I dont mean to sound conceited by saying that). I more looking for how others on here handle/cope with this outlook?

I feel like I have a split brain, with one side of it being rational and knowing that my OCD behaviors are ridiculous and rather baseless, and then I have my OCD half that carries out all my odd, nonsensical behaviors. It's just so damn hard to control that side of my brain.

It's to the point where I'm wondering if I should consider electrotherapy (though I know that's only reserved for very serious cases, but at this point if the way Im living isn't considered "severely hindered" I feel beyond sorry for those who are).

Anyway, I'm just sort of venting and felt like getting some of my feelings out there because I have few people to talk to about this side of myself and it gets bottled up inside me.