I'm bringing this back up because Friday afternoon is the last time I will see my pdoc of nearly a decade, and it is getting to me in a bad, bad way. I am not doing well at all right now, and I can't see the pdoc I've chosen in my new city until after New Year's. I called to see if I could get in earlier, because I seem to be in pretty much permanent crisis mode, but they said because I was a new patient there was nothing they could do.

I don't have a T either, and haven't since April, and that isn't helping things either.

I'm having a hard time with the hard reality of the fact that I'm really, truly "gone" from my hometown. I've spent most of this year angling to get back there, and then I got a job elsewhere that I couldn't turn down. It's bad enough having to adjust to a new city without having to give up my old support system, too! Going in for pdoc appts. has given me a reason to go back there every couple of months and see my friends, etc. So now what? I moved from a city of 550,000 to one of 13,000 and it's a whole lot harder to make friends in an itty-bitty town with nothing to do. I miss my friends, I miss my church, ... hell, I miss my old life, even though this "new" one isn't really all that bad.

And since I first posted this, I haven't come up with any ideas for a parting gift, either. The place Jan suggested doesn't have a website, and there aren't any here (there aren't any ANYTHINGS here ).



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