My issue is more situational depression, but I'm worried it may turn into something more. My boyfriend cheated on me with an ex for a second time (I know. I should have never taken him back to begin with). After the breakup I cried constantly for two weeks straight, lost 13 pounds -I weighed 115 so it was 13 pounds I really didn't have to lose- and didn't feel like doing anything. Well I get that's somewhat normal after a break up.

But now, two months later, I'm back where I began. Almost as if I've regressed but worse. I'm finding it having to do more with myself than the brEakup. Before my boyfriend I never had high elf esteem. Never thought a boy would like me, if one did I would push him away knowing it would never work, bla bla bla. So when I finally found a guy who broke through that barrier, it was almost as if he validated who I was. Bad idea. Because now I find Im not happy with who I am and where I am in life, but I don't want to have to rely on someone else for my own happiness. I find when I do cry, it's mainly more because of my self esteem than because of my ex.

I know the pain of the breakup will pass, but was wondering if I should seek help with my self esteem or coping. I dread the waiting game with this feeling to pass and fear it will only get worse after this recent relapse.