Yes I think this all the time (not the hospitalized part, but that I'm making it up for attention and so I can be lazy). However, it isn't true, as evident by all the other days when I believe in my dx and can come up with sound reasons for doing so. I do cycle between suicidal depression and stupidly self-loving prideful and wrathful hypomania, and I'm not making it up or trying to get attention. Your husband is cold and insensitive for saying so. If there's any chance of you talking this over and making up with eachother I'd suggest you tell him straigth to his face that he really shouldn't talk like that to you, or to anyone. I'm having similar (but in a much milder form) problems with my boyfriend. My symptoms are rarely visible to others, even when I'm suicidal or think I'm God's son. And logically enough, though still quite surprising to me, he did not know how serious my illness currently is. He said some hurtful things (that I am not even trying to be happy and get well, that I am egotistical, etc.) but he said sorry for them and I said sorry for the things I said and now we're trying to move on.



I really hope you two sort this out in a good way. Until you do, don't let these negative thoughts fester and grow. I did and ended up planning my own suicide again. That was a total waste of time.