PROS = Wife and kids. friends and boat. Work. Dogs. Medication working.

CONS = Wife is up to her head, drowning at work and become emotionally unstable at home and in need of huge support right now.

Kids are not doing so well. My 12 year old just finished up with counseling because we found out she was cutting herself! ugh, she has always been the 'do right' one. My youngest is battling emotional instability. She is not being able to control the whirlwind of emotions that she is experiencing.

Boat needs work again! Just rebuilt the engine completely. After the rebuild, it overheated due to a failed thermostat and overheat sensor and we blew the head! Well, the bottom piston, it has three, has been slightly damaged and it experiencing blowthrough, so we are losing power. not too much, but enough that it is harder to get it on plane.

medication working, but still cycling. not bad cycling, just enough that it is impossible to be ignorant to my condition.

Also, my latest go of bad decisions is weighing on me too. See, at home, I'm just like any other guy. Stable in my actions and thinking, etc. etc. But as far as my extra curricular stuff, I'm all over the place. At least I got the home life down. that's the important thing. I don't carry my insanity over to my home life. No... that's all kept for everything else that I do lol. It's all I can do.

I guess this is life. Nothing is going to be perfect, and you will find what you are looking for. If I were to focus on the bad and the negative, I would surely fall into depression again. But... I'm looking ahead at the positive. That's keeping me sane for now, until things improve.