Hey, this is my main coping mechanism! Pretending, believing, talking myself into the idea that none of this is real. That I am just like everyone else, and I'm determined to be better than everyone else at it too!

It's triggering for me to try and get a perspective on myself as being a manic depressive. If my mind goes back to the depressive and/or hypo times it just makes it all too real and I have a hard time looking anyone else in the eye. But, all of my fight that I have in me is based around this idea. I tell myself to shut up, that there is nothing really wrong and it works for me. I tend to resign to the overwhelming memories and thoughts of depression mostly, and hypo too.

the realness of it is too much a lot of times for me to grasp.