Maybe it's that we miss the people that we are that we have come to know and accept and rely on. that we miss ourselves, however screwed up we are?

I don't miss the deep depressions and the absent minded hypo.....
I have enough to deal with, with my cycling.

for the times that I can go without the symptoms of cycling though, I tend to put it out of my mind and get on with life. Good routines, Good schedules, etc. etc.

So then when I start cycling and showing patterns, it hits that much harder when it screws up all the good stuff that I had going for me.

but I never got bored with the good stuff.