Welcome to PsychCentral. I'm sorry for all the loses you have had to suffer. Having bipolar and having to deal with that much grief has to be hard. It might be a good idea to see a grief counselor, if you aren't already. I'm glad your wife is supportive, but there is no way that someone without bipolar can totally understand what it is like. It is a hard illness to understand for those of us that have it, much less those that don't. Check out the forums and jump in when you feel like it or start a thread of your own if you wish. Posting is the best way to get to know everyone. Wishing you the best.
Gayle