I found out a few weeks ago that my Graves Disease is back. I have to have my thyroid out. Boo.

Of course, no everyone is telling me that it's the disease that makes me moody and that I probably am not bipolar. Which would be ok. Except I don't think that's the case.

I talked to my pdoc and we agreed not to do anything medically until my thyroid is out. I told him that the Equetro wasn't working as well as the Lamictal. He didn't say anything about taking me off of meds so I'm pretty sure he still thinks the bp is a valid diagnosis.

I just hate being sick and not knowing what is wrong with me again.

And I really hate being sick in a way no one can see. Again.

I understand lots of bp patients also have thyroid disease. And maybe it exacerbates it. Maybe I'm not bp at all. Maybe...who knows.

I just think it's weird how I cycle if this is just my thyroid. I remember being always in ONE state the last time I was sick. Not up and down and all over the place.

Those with thyroid disease....do you feel like your thyroid causes symptoms that mimic the bp?

I just don't want to get caught in the deep cycle I was in before meds once my thyroid is out and everyone thinks nothing else is wrong. Maybe I'm scared my pdoc won't get it right. I don't konw.

I'm just....blah. I want to crawl back in bed. I feel like crap today.