Glad you posted. It helps to get it out. I think you will find a lot of people on the board that can relate. Mental illness can be a very lonely illness. Most of us aren't the life of the party or have a lot of friends. I couldn't put together a party for myself either. My life consists of my husband, one grown daughter and 2 friends, one that is confined to her house due to COPD. I feel lucky I have each one of them but there are never any parties. I wouldn't know how to act anyway. Sorry you were disappointed. I know it hurts. I hope you enjoy whatever you wind up doing.
Gayle