Good afternoon-ish

It has come to my attention that my husband has told 3 of his co-workers ( i know all of them) and 4 of our friends that I am BP.

I am not happy with this. "Everyone" is not educated on BP. As you are probably aware there is a stigma attached to this "condition".

I can't see myself socializing with these people ever again.

His opinion is that I have to face them sooner or later.

I have known these people for many years. They know who I am. When I go into a depressed state I normally distance myself from them, thus, they have not experienced "sad" me.

I feel it is something personal. He has been diagnosed with depression. I have not told a soul.

He is on Cilift and smokes cannabis daily. We are on completely different wave lengths. I find him extremely irritating at times. Especially now that i have PMS too

One of the problems in our marriage is his daily consumption of cannabis.

He rationalizes it because I made a VERY good friend with my BF's husband recently. We share such a special bond - everything 100% platonic. My husband sees it as "emotional cheating" - My Best Friend has written me off. I am not allowed to contact her husband and vice versa. We have basically admitted to our partners that we love each other...

Anyhow...

Like I mentioned in my previous thread my husband forgave my for my infidelity. He wants to work to save our marriage. Our marriage has got it's problems - but for most of it - IT WORKS WELL - I feel like i work harder sometimes, like I am the one doing all the compromising. I feel like his child at times/ or his best friend. He is 11 years older than me....

I don't want to live with a stoner everyday for the rest of my live. He says he will stop - has MANY times in the past. Lied about stopping on numerous occasions.

Is he going to justify everything he does by saying:" You had an affair and is BP"?

....ain't nobody got time for that

FYI - i think a lot of this anger is PMS and not BP aggressiveness - But WOW what a combo!

Hope to hear from someone soon