Hello Iamamess, I think you answered your own question. Yes, I think that youe should talk to somebody about your self esteem issues. You gave your boyfriend another chance but it didnt turn out good. I think we can all relate to that. Your boyfiend was part of the problem but you are the solution. You deserve more than him. You are woorth much more than that. If you dont value yourself how do you expect others to treat you right. You sound like a really lovely person and I hope that you take your own advice and talk to somebody. Best Wishes.