i see the world and i'm filled with joy and i wish everyone could see it this way. so much change swing back swing forth swing low SWING HIGH because no one wants to swing low (except sweet chariots).

perceived discrepancy - oh i perceive a discrepancy between what i want and what you want because i want freedom from you standards! normalcy, i want to shut my eyes, but who needs to sleep? i want to cut the cord from earth and float up here forever since it seems i'll never find my way back down.

stress stressed from the test of my will to use the skill. my will is not in skills today and i don't know when it will be again. i'm flying higher than i've ever flown before and i can see earth so beautiful so round so perfect from space.

once in a lifetime can you feel this good because soon it will switch again. soon it will switch again and i - i may break - break my happy face.

took sooooooo much benadryl, took four, probably not a good idea but i think i'm going to take a nap. that will be fun.