MON AUG 12 - ok ... so I went to the ER last night ... i just couldn't stand it any longer. They didn't give a crap about any of the tHings causing my pain ... but they did give me 12 pain pills. I overheard the doctor telling the nurses (they were outside of my room) "the guy in bed 12 is SO LUCKY, i am tired and don't feel like dealing with him"

I AM LUCKY !!!! while I do appreciate him giving me a few pain pills ... the ONLY reason he did it was because it was the easiest thing he could do to get me out of his hair ?!! otherwise I would i would have most likely been there all night, and received no help at all ??

The Pain Mgmt office called me today and i go in wed. AND i can tell you now, exactly what is going to happen when I go ... but I am trying to refrain so I will keep it short. They will want to put me on blood thinners and give me epidurals (i have had dozens of these, they don't work) I have been here, done this, ain't doing it all over again !!!

IAM SERIOUSLY TRYING NOT TO BE PESSIMISTIC, SOOooooo I will go see this PM Dr and the neurosurgeon, and the psych dr ... hope for the best, and prepare for the worst !! and i have actually found some solace in plan b ... i just need to get a lot of stuff taken care of !!