I'm right there with you wildflowerchild25. People's adherence to "normal" is just so much piss poured from a boot. Unfortunately for me, I can't finish what I start, there are too many possibilities in my head. I'm headed up and who knows how high I will go, but for now I'm just enjoying it, even though there is a little bit of dread because I know I'll crash eventually.

Mr. and Mrs Normal have no idea what's happening in my head or yours. I don't have any real idea what's going on in yours, except that what you say is the way I feel.

I'm already on antipsychotics, so I have to hope for the best without having to be drugged into a zombie state.

I hope you find a way to grab hold of where you are going.