Aside being continually hurt and feeling so wrong-footed by this chap of yours, please don't marry a man you do not know... as you've already admitted, you've seen each other twice. I am not belittling your feelings, goodness no, but you do not know each others real selves. If you stay with this man, please, live together first for a couple of years.. It's hard enough, it really is, without being near strangers.