Think I might give in and do it. I'm not hurting anyone but myself so idc what they think anymore. I need this so bad. I no longer care if they send me away. I need to do this. maybe if they send me away I can finally get some adequate rest. I'm in a bad place right now with nothing else to do but find a sharp object....
sorry I just need to vent. this feeling is slowly taking over ny brain and body. I need to do it so bad I can barely move.