Fight or flight? Flight or fight? Which is right and which is wrong? Can either be right? Fight or flight? I’m afraid of the flight. I have a family to care for that can’t afford my flight. I’m trying for the fight. Fight or flight fight or flight. Which one is right? I can’t seem to wrap my head around this problem. I can say this: I never thought it would get this bad. I’m so glad I can carry on a cohesive conversation at least in real life because maybe they won’t notice and maybe I won’t have to go in. except I need an AP! Help please doctor, I’m bent (but not broken) and I want to learn to love again!

But where am I really? Just because I’m speaking in tongues means nothing. Aren’t I making this all up? Where is my mind really? Are my thoughts really racing? Am I just making up symptoms to scare myself? Because I want to be someone I’m not I want to be crazy. But I don’t want to be crazy at all. I’m not sixteen anymore. I don’t need attention from my mommy. So I know that’s not it which leaves the fact that this is all real. So walk this way with me because I’m lonely out here in space.