I'm just scared about this since I'm not sure if I can do it. I have the intelligence to get great grades, but I go into mania/psychosis every winter into mid spring. The reason why I didn't fail this year is because my significant other took care of me and made sure I did all my homework and made sure I continued to go to class. I couldn't have done it with out their support and I'm terrified of being a failure in their eyes. My significant other doesn't want me to be hospitalized ever again, but I'm afraid that might happen and if that happens I will lose them like my previous relationships. I should had been hospitalized this year, but they literally took care of me from giving me showers to helping me eat.

I wish bipolar could just go away or be less severe; I wouldn't mind feeling sad or overly happy every now and then.