hubby thinks i WANT to go back to inpatient! Couldn't be further from the truth. i want to get an AP to get down from this race track that my mind is on. but i'm afraid. i am afraid they will send me inpatient if they can read my thoughts because my thoughts are flooding out into the open air. i don't know how to sew my mouth shut anymore around doctors. i used to be an oyster firmly clasped protecting my pearl but not anymore. they have a hypnotizing effect affecting me greatly.

i feel magical like i can help anyone if they'll just let me but who's left to help me if i can't hold on? incoherent. ink - coherent on the page. just get me down doctor. just get me down. just get me down. i'm starting to go blind up here i can't see the beautiful earth and even though i'm magic i can't keep it up much longer.