I am not at all feeling well, but I'd like to say I have a chemical imbalance due to my genetics. My immediate family is prone to mental illness. Especially on my mothers side. I have had blood tests done, brain scans. All show a lack of activity in the areas of the brain that are affected most by depression. That is scientific logic. I am depressed because I am genetically predispositioned to these illnesses. Does that mean I was born depressed and anxious? No. But there were events in my life that triggered these reactions.

How does one escape death? I am an apathetic atheist (as in I don't really put much thought into religion, I respect others religions, but I see no point in it myself) so it's hard for me to fathom this idea. I am not asking to be rude, which I know it seems like. I am curious to see what you're saying and to understand it more.