Yeah, I think a lot of times we expect the worst and it becomes a self fulfilling prophecy. Has been that way with me before, brought on my anxiety and panic feeling. I've gotten a good grip on the anxiety, believe it or not after yesterday lol.

I'm not blowing up the threads today! Yay! Go me lol.

I like the idea of buddism... always has appealed to me. that, and Vipassana meditation.