Do you have people around that you can call on for support? You didn't say how you are getting to the hospital with the attempts. Did your pdoc say that he couldn't work with you anymore? He must be giving you some sort of plan/medication to figure out how to battle the anxiety and depression. When I was at a similar place in my life where you are now, it took my gp, t, and pdoc to help me. It wasn't a fast process, it took many months to get the meds regulated. Also, I attend therapy weekly if possible.
I agree with another poster that if your current pdoc isn't helping, is it possible to find another that can help you? Meanwhile, try to find a good therapist asap!
I am sorry to ask so many questions, Melisssa, I just hope that there is some way that you can get the help you need quickly! I wish I could be there to help you because I know how hard it is to find the energy to take care of yourself the way you currently feel. Just try to survive one moment at a time.

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