Not to mention, that as soon as I changed my name back, I've had this fear that my wife would log on and read my insanity. See, she won't get that I have stuff going on in my head and that it is ok. I know she would say that I'm not giving her a chance, but she has shown me that if I experience symptoms that she will want me to call my doc and that it will be an issue. I don't want this to be an issue, and I am fine in the end. this is just the stuff that goes along with it. She says she hates surprises, so if she checks up on me here, well, that would be like a surprise.

I feel that is selfish of her. making my condition about her by putting conditions on it lol.

she just needs to let me be me and if I have a hard time with something then just let it be and let me handle it.

ugh....

thoughts running through my head.
wish they would stop.