Went to T apt today. T is leaving. Tells me today. Also tells me if I want more T sessions I have to get referred again by Pdoc and waiting list is a year and I'd go to the back of the list.
I wouldn't be here in a year.
Why did I start to trust my T? Why bother just to get let down and left again. What did I do wrong? Why do people always leave me? Am I that awful?
Going to see local charity for advice but it looks like I'm going to have to borrow money and try find someone private 
The mental health services in this country are a nightmare. 15 years for me to finally get in with a T and then they leave and I have to go back to the back of the waiting list because they leave? How is that fair?
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Dx: BPD, OCD, Anxiety, Depression, AvPD, DePD, OCPD.
Meds: Sertraline 200mg, quetiapine 200mg, diazepam 4-8mg, codeine 60mg, statins(high cholesterol triggered by venlafaxine), vit C&D, B12, Iron, domperidone 30mg, omeprazole, mebeverine, gabapentin 400mg, naproxen 1000mg
Sanity score: 233
One of my favourite quotes:
'sometimes life breaks in mysterious ways'
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