See, here is my problem with this. with being here right now. I feel empty... and I'm desperate for something, anything. that is how I get when I am truly alone for a while. it starts small, but grows the longer I wait.

sux. I know it's a personal problem, but thought I would share it. the more I feel this way, the more I don't want to be around anyone. It's like, company over right now would only distract me and would be annoying. I don't want a distraction, I want a solution. lol. I don't know what this is, but at least I can put words to it now. so that's good.