Skysblue, this is difficult news so thinking of you over the next few days as you process what it means.

On your T commenting about finding a T in your new area, please don't think for a minute it was because she was saying good-bye so soon. My limited experience is it is an act of care that T wants to be sure you're looking out for yourself in a time of abrupt change. Depending where you move to they may also assist with transferring records.

On a forced, fast termination: Yes, I experienced it early this summer when my T very unexpectedly and quickly closed her practice. I had two sessions after T's news and I was in absolute shock for both. I debated not going to either but through encouragement here I did and so very, very thankful I pushed through the pain, sadness, hurt, anger and grief to do so. It was enough sessions to thank T for her attention, focus, and genuine care while also the opportunity to listen to her feedback on me. I found the sessions openly honest. Raw with emotion and I cried endlessly but that's life and I felt tremendous grief. Good-bye was difficult in that T didn't cry or even get misty eyed so her words didn't have the weight I wanted as they didn't match her body language but I reminded myself she is trained not to let emotions show through and I needed to trust her words and not read beyond them.

I'm happy to answer any specifics too. This is pretty fresh in my mind. Do you go weekly? Writing letters or notes in-between helped reinforce what was important for me to say/ask. Usually we started sessions chatting about pointless BS but since I only had 2 I wanted every second spent on the termination process and feelings. There was a specific area T was my rock on so I deliberately took the opportunity to thank her for that, explained how her impact helped and how I'll handle a similar scenario differently. I'm still somewhat dazed I will never see or speak with her again. I won't see her smile or hear her laugh or tell her about this crazy thing I attempted and succeeded at.

One last thing, I did find T distant those last two sessions and that was hard. I wanted it to be all about ME and while she did a great job I could feel a difference in her. I know it had nothing to do with ME rather her own circumstances of closing and moving on. Still it hurt during our sessions when I could tell she was staring through me. It took some difficult independent post session work to be okay with myself in how I felt about that. I felt cheated she wasn't fully present and experiencing the deep emotions I was yet I felt sad that she was going through a challenging time and I couldn't reciprocate the care.