I don't know what to do! It's been 5 years since I've seriously cut, but with the fact that my fiance left me and I may be losing my house, I find myself wanting to start cutting again. I've already cut by scratching with a small knife. But, I am wanting more and more to cut seriously again. I don't know what to do any more! I have been using a rubber band around my wrist and snapping it, which provides some relief. But, it's working less and less every day!