Hello I hope things are going better for you at this time. I hope your therapist gets back to you really soon, so that your medication can get adjusted so that you feel better soon., I am going to leave you a hotline number to call in case you feel suicidal again and you need to talk to someone in person 1-800-273-TALK. I am glad that you are here talking about how you feel and I hope that you know that you are not alone, and that there is help for you, so that you can feel better. You may email me anytime if you wish, and I am also on chatroom from time to time in the afternoon usually around 2pm, and you are free to join in at anytime. I hope the best for you and I hope things get better for you soon. Take care Sincerely soidhonia