Hi Mouse,
I had to reply cos this is a really excellent post. i know exactly what you mean about the radio and about the fantasy mother. i really dont understand it much myself but i recognise myself in what you say and also that you re a long way ahead of me but thats a good thing because it lets me know this is a real goal i can reach!
sorry. i cant really get my thoughts straight on this topic but i really identify with what you said. thank you for putting it so well and huge congratulations on getting yourself to this point!
good luck continuing to get a better signal on that radio!
biiv