I only found and joined this forum a few weeks ago, but everyone is really nice.

I have a psychiatrist appointment Thursday. Hate to say it, but I have been kinda tense and all PTSD-ish for a few weeks. Bad memories of last year. And having a feeling of "this makes me sad", which I haven't had for a while.

I am afraid to bring it up. I desperately do not want a mental health diagnosis associated with my name, it makes me both ashamed and a bit paranoid that I will be outed and my world will crumble. I know, I do in medical records, I hope maybe they are destroyed after a period of time.

But, I don't like the feeling. Not entirely sure I am tough enough to weather it on my own. Maybe I need some mild meds just to take the edge off? Also, I speak very carefully, how should I broach the subject?