Hello I hope things are going better for you at this time. I hope that you are not going to beat yourself up too much for what happened. This is something you want to talk to your therapist about, there is surgery that you may be able to have in order to reduce the scarring. I hope things get better for you soon. I am going to leave you the hotline number to call if you need to call and talk to someone in person. 1-800-273-TALK. Take care Sincerely Soidhonia