My boyfriend told me I'm not "worth it" anymore. He said I used to be but that I'm not anymore. I have spent 26 years trying to make myself feel worth it in all aspects of my life...and to hear someone who I love tell me I'm not, well that just destroys me. He doesn't understand what I go through in my head on a daily basis. He is very closed minded to things and always tells me how I need to just CHANGE. Like, I can do that so easy. He must think I want to be this way. I am tired of being sad, angry and lonely all at the same time. I am tired of looking in the mirror and hating myself. I just want to be happy but I know its not that easy for me.