Today started out ok, until a conversation with an ex who is also a friend brought me spiraling down.

I hate this. I wish I could deal with stress like a normal effing person. I'm so confused and I'm scared. I feel a lot of guilt because I've hurt this person a lot while we were together, and even then, he still tries to be my friend. But I continue to hurt him. I feel like anyone who loves me enough to stay will just get hurt over and over again. And that makes me feel like I'll be alone for the rest of my life. Why would I want to bring a lot of hurt into another person's life?

Whatever. All of this is meaningless anyway. Hooray for such a whiny and stupid post.