Everything seems to be triggering me today! The last couple of days actually. I feel pretty terrible right now. 3 weeks ago I ended up in hospital after an OD. I'm headed towards that state again. I'm determined not to get there and take the same desperate measure again! But like I said, everything is triggering right now.

I know that in my attempt not to do this I know that I will end up cutting. It's what I do to quieten the urges. To reduce them to a more manageable level. But then I'm scared too that I may end up deciding instead of just cutting to release I will cut to die instead.

I just have to hope that cutting will be enough.