My t cannot be reached in crisis due to the medical clinic rules he works for. Supposed to call a local crisis center if needed, but I know I'll never do that. I'd give anything to be able to leave a message for him without having to go through a nurse first. Just the simple act of letting him know what's going on would be helpful for me, even knowing that he can't get back to me. I write it in my journal instead. Not really the same, but for now it works. Plus then I can choose to share it with him next session. So because of clinic rules, he doesn't have outside contact with patients after clinic times.

My ED t, has much more open boundaries. I haven't been in crisis since I've been seeing her. Can't say that I'd want to call her anyway. She's said I can call her, leave messages, plus I have her email address. I'm so used to having such closed boundaries with my other t, that I'm not open to any of these with her just yet. Too foreign to me.

I meet a new pdoc today. She works with my t in the same medical clinic, so I know she'd hand me the same crisis clinic numbers that he did.