I know what you mean, i get obsessed with this site, but i love it. i find things here i can relate to and have learned alot through others posts, i don't know why but i just love it. I want to be able to feel a sence of purpouse here too. My mother actually told me to not use this site as i just happened to have a hospital stay she claims was caused by this site, but that wasn't really the case, i know myself enough to say that. She is controlling sometimes, so i realize that and just think that is why she made me promise i wouldn't go here anymore, as you can see i didn't take her advise. I just love it here and shouldn't have to take away something i love.