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I’ve been seeing the same therapist for almost two years. I really like her but i feel like i can’t open up in therapy. There’s so much i want to tell her but i have a really hard time trusting people in general. I feel like she will leave me if i don’t open up. She’s usually the one initiating the conversation in therapy and she told me that sometimes she’s hesitant of asking questions because she feels like if she forces me, I will withdraw even more. But the truth is i want her to push a little bit more so maybe i can open up. After the therapy session today, I just feel like she will leave me. I couldn’t even tell her about how hard last week was and how bad the voices and the delusions were. I just want to be a better client for her. She asked me how i would describe myself and i couldn’t tell her because i don’t want her to know how much i hate myself. I just got out of therapy wanting to hurt myself because I feel like my therapist hates me for not being able to open up. Anyway, what should I do to open up more? Does anyone have any suggestions?
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