It's good to hear you are a person that wants and tries to help themselves. I commend you for trying and i hope things get better for you because of it. About your relationship you need to save yourself the trouble of all the worry, they're are alot of things you can do to either get over it, or if you don't break up you can go to therapy? The empty feeling can be awful, you need to get a hobby or do you work?I hope all works out fine just take it one day at a time