I find myself feeling a failure in Gods eyes all the time. I start thinking that there is nothing I can do right anyways so why try to please anyone. Especially God. Even though in my heart I do believe in him.. I dont feel like I will make it to heaven when I do die. So why try?? Its a constant fight within my heart. I want to be a good person. I want to do right by everyone. But its impossible. And I've done so much bad... that I dont think its reversible. I am a failure.. and I always will be one. Its the truth that faces me every day of my life.