It's really hard to learn that. It took me a looooong time and a lot of maturing on my part to figure that out.

I'm so much happier now. I found new friends who respected me for who I was.. I never felt like I had to be anything different than what I am with them. They helped me to move on. They were a blessing in my life and I'll never regret their friendship for that fact alone. Several months into my very close friendship with the group of them, I got depression and they couldn't really handle my emotionalness over that... so we're not really speaking anymore. Sometimes people can't handle it, and that's no fault of their own. Different people have different strengths. You just gotta pick up the pieces, decide that you're worth it, and carry on to even better friendships.

This guy had also made me forget about the people in my life who already accepted and loved me the way I was. It was like he was the only one who ever mattered. And I was never good enough for him it seemed. Getting over him helped me to flourish.

I don't know how your friendship is with that guy... but mine was kind of abusive. He seemed like he was judging me all the time and I had to change in order to keep him happy. It was awful. But I think a really good learning experience.. in a way it was absolutely GREAT that he turned out to be gay because if he wasn't and had taken advantage of me... who knows how extremely more detrimental that could have been.

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