So sorry you are feeling so down. With already having depression and losing your boyfriend, too, I'm not surprised you are especially down. I, too, am depressed so I understand the not wanting to do anything. At least, you tried to get out and do something. That's a start. I can't seem to push myself to do anything outside of work. And I have to do that. It's all I can do to hold it together during the workday. I hope you continue to try and get out and do a few things. I know it will help you feel better. It's good you have a hobby with your camera. Keep trying to take those pictures. I hope you feel better soon.
Gayle