I am getting trained as a psychotherapist and lately I have started to realize that during a session am afraid that my client might cry. I cringe up, my body get tensed and I find myself thinking "please don't cry, please don't cry"
This worries me. So slowly I have distanced myself from therapy and opted for assessment and psychometrics. This has gotten me down because I really want to be a good therapist.

This isn't limited to my professional life. In my personal life I feel I am not empathetic towards myself or others. Although I listen and no one knows how I am feeling, but it just bothers me. I don't like to share my problems, I have hardly ever cried in front of someone, I can't even recall the last time I cried in front of someone. But I cry, a lot these days. Mostly because I don't understand what's wrong with me. I wasn't this way before, I think.... I don't know.

Would highly appreciate feedback.